I Wish I Knew

Rob and I have been married 15 years. We lived together one year before that. We dated several months before we moved in together. We worked together for almost a year before we began dating. Needless to say, we have quite a history.

In our 16+ years together, there have been bumps in the road. Forks in the road. Detours. Road construction. Pot holes. Times when we were determined to take the next exit ramp off the highway, and not go a mile more. Yet, we remain. During some of the ups and downs, I wrote. That's what I do. I cope that way. My fellow blogger and someone I consider a new friend, neicy, has had the courage to share some of her romantic poetry. I've thoroughly enjoyed it. I'm pulling these out of my dusty poetry archives from 2001. Some of these are about heartbreak, some are about strong love and attraction. Hope at least one of them speak to you.

I Wish I Knew

I wish I knew
how I feel about you-
It's tangled
It's love
it's hate
it's fear:

because every time you're near
it's like christmas morning
a surprise birthday party
the first snow of winter
jumping in raked leaves

I wish I knew
what to do about you-
To run
or stay
forget you
because every time you're near
is like getting a brand new bike
the last day of class for the summer
the first day of spring break
or meeting a new best friend

I wish I knew
where to go or what to say-
Please stay
I'll go
forgive me
because every time you're near
it's like a snow day in february
a letter from a dear friend
the sound of rain on the rooftop
sunday dinner with peach cobbler

And it's like
being home

holding you is like
being home
touching you is like
being home
your lips on mine is like
being home
my hand in yours is like
being home

I've always known that you're my home.