Watching You

5/28/07

You watched us as we watched you
you patiently waited for us to go
Thank you for sharing your home
with us for the afternoon
You are so much like us
in many ways
Daddy, Mommy, with your
three babies
You're so loving
carefully nurturing
not taking your eyes away
for a moment.
You knew we wouldn't stay
and we would soon be moving on
When we gathered our gear
you directed your family
down to the bank
and glided on, resuming
your life on the pond.
Thank you for the serenity
for that is what we shared today.

tired

5/27/07

can't sleep
but i'm so tired
must be that creative genius psychopath in me
trying to keep me awake

i like to sleep
and i usually sleep soundly
but all this writing
is effecting me profoundly

hush little baby
it's eye closing time
for my scribbling is senseless
and i'm all out of rhyme

The Way it Is

I read a really good book
couldn't put it down
then I forgot all about it
as the months rolled around

If I read it ten years later
I'd wonder if it was deja vu...
then I'd forget it again
when I was through

Please don't take this wrong
but you'll be the same
one day I'll struggle
to remember your name

Maybe I'll remember
your kiss or a romantic date
but if you walk away
make sure you close the gate

Because I'm not being mean
it's just the way my brain adjusts
instead of grieving you
I'll simply forget about us

I'll drive my car past an old farm
I will think I've seen it, but won't be sure
so don't take to heart what we have
in the end, it, too, will be folklore.

Change

5/27/07

Sometimes when I
think about it,
my heart just breaks.
My throat feels tight.
Tears trail down my face

So much has changed
so much has changed
but then again
it's all the same.

I need a constant
I need security
and I can't find it
inside of me.
I'm not what I used to be.

So much has changed
so much has changed
but then again
it's all the same.

I want to hold on
please don't let go
don't release this grip
keep me here, hold me close
it's a long, dark trip.

So much has changed
so much has changed
but then again
it's all the same.

Reassure me, calm me
until I drift off to sleep
don't think it odd
if at times I weep.
For you see-

So much has changed
so much has changed
but then again
it's all the same.

Nine Years

5/27/07

I've stared at that same spot on the floor
every day for nine years now.
It never changes.
Could it be that I've spend a third
of my life here since
I walked through this door?

Though it's not reality, part of me
feels a sense of ownership
in this place.
Yet in a moment my life
could change and a new adventure
I'd embrace.

Good days-bad days-
days flew by without fanfare...
and I'm sitting here
facing that same spot
with the same blank stare.

Reflections of a Loss

5/26/07

Standing at your grave
one of thousands
in neat, architectural rows
each year I find yours easier
lot and number
I now know by heart
Soon you will be gone longer
than I had you in my life
I was just twenty-two
that wasn't long enough.
At first I was worried
that I might forget you
but now I know
I never could.
I wish you were able to
stay longer.
I truly wish I'd known.

Grandpa

05/26/07

You taught me to laugh
at life when it got too serious
you'd say
"scratch your mad place and get glad"
when I was glaring and furious

You said,
"You must be too short on one end"
when something was out
of my reach
you'd listen when I was sad
and never preach.

Though you left this world
in my heart you will live on
they will remember you
because through my eyes
you'll never be gone.

You're Just You

11/06

You're outspoken
and unabashadly you-
don't care who hears
sure whatever you say is true.

A semblance of nice
a touch of bitter
one thing I'll give you
you're no quitter.

You'll grandstand for this
you'll prattle on about that
you may not know
which cat's in the hat.

Take just one second
to look before you leap
keep in mind
some things just run too deep.

You're a Drink

11/17/06

You know my number
but you sure don't call it.
If you're a drink
I'm an alcoholic
been going to meetings
in my head
Maybe I'll beat this habit
when I'm dead.
Do me a favor-
kill me quick
you're one vise
I just can't kick.

Who Are You to Me?

11/16/07

Who are you to me?
We don't even know each other.
You think you know me-
a wife and a mother.
There are layers
that I don't even fathom-
Where is the real you?
Let me at 'em.
I can tell you really care-
case in point
your point blank stare.
over the river
through with you
this again?
Nothing new.

I Can't Believe

11/01/06

I can't believe you did that
for me.
Without even letting on
that you were going to.
You made my friend cry...
tears of joy.
I didn't know you cared
so much.
You don't want friends
but by your actions,
you blessed mine.
You went against the grain
against your tendency
to be an introvert...
by doing so you helped a family
more than you could know.
Thank you
the friend is mine....
but the goodness is yours.

You Love Me

11/01/06

How else am I supposed to see it?
You love me.
I can't see it any other way.
By deeds
not words
Words were never your strong suit.
but the tongues of men
spout lies-
who can believe them?
So I'll look at your time
and I'll continually
be amazed
at how much of it
is spent on me.
How else am I supposed to see it?
You love me.
I can't see it any other way.