i managed to forget you

i don't recall reading this
but i must have cried, anyway
must have hurt me profoundly
so i changed somehow that day

everything was going fine
you could have been mine
but you decided, instead,
to walk away

and here in my mind
i erased it all
pretended like
i didn't take the fall

everything was going fine
you could have been mine
but you decided, instead
to pull away

i don't remember how i felt
did my heart race a bit
when i saw my name
as you carelessly wrote it?

everything was going fine
you could have been mine
but you decided, instead
to write those words.

if you didn't mean it
you could have fooled me
did you even hesitate
or jot them with ease?

everything was going fine
you could have been mine
no matter what you
thought you knew.

I was young, but you see
there was a depth to me
i had a foundation and a
heart full of loyalty


everything was going fine
but i guess it wasn't
eventually, i managed to
forget you, didn't i?


thursday, august 16th, 2007

rock and a hard place

I'm caught between my life
of melancholy and
folly
Stuck here
rock and a hard place
yet I don't care
Finding myself
trying to trick the clock
up and down
the racetrack
at the end of the block
Just a second
can't spare an hour
amazing what I give away
so much power
Left holding the bag
but the bottom fell out
spider running up and down
the water spout
washed to sea but
i wanted it that way
She says, they said
everyone has a thought
is this the life that
i sought?
you gave me the choice
eenie meenie minie mo
now i can't remember
which way to go

thursday, august 16th, 2007

Clutter

gotta get out of this place
the walls are closing in
i'm tripping on
what is gone
must find my own space

shine that light again
this place is dark
i'm tired
still wired
i forget where I've been

for crying out oh so loud
too tired to weep
i need a change
a slower lane
wanna hide behind my shroud

i can't stand this nonstop noise
can't think straight in here
i want to unwind
or maybe rewind
find a series of harmless joys

can't get away from it at all
because it's deep within
it's my own brain
making me insane
and I feel like I just might fall

08/22/07